I pray that the Lord will guide us into all Truth and lead us unto Himself.
I want you to know that I'm much harder on myself than on any other being on the planet.I don't tolerate in my life any half ways or sin and spend many hours in self conflict and prayer daily.Some of my words and deeds make me hate and want to kill the sinful Bianca with a passion.Some of the things I speak in my house certainly don't win me a popularity contest with my husband and close family,but I now welcome that sort of persecution,thinking that it's nothing compared to what followers of Jesus go through in many parts of the world even today.I only rejoice when they all admit that Jesus changed the wretch called Bianca ( liar,boastful,murdering,drunkard,people hater and general breaker of all the Law ) so dramatically that it's undeniable for the ones who knew me before Jesus found me. I wish you guys could see the before Jesus and after Jesus mug shots ( Ha,Ha,Ha )
I beg Him to kill me daily and that brings many changes ( mostly painful ) to my life.Most of the "toys"( pleasures ) that were a big part of my life,I had to put down at His feet and walk away from,the things that once ruled me,now are in the trash can...It's not easy but it's the best time I've ever known,this dieing to self is wonderful,yeah,the pain to.I know He only gets rid of the things that are bad for me and only good can come out of it.
So...When we feel like the "vessel" is about to burst and all around us there is pain,we need to focus on Jesus and follow His example in ( Luke 22:44 ) "And being in anguish,He prayed more earnestly"
With Love for ALL the Sinners and Saints,
Bianca

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