I've really been yearning and crying out to the Father to hear His voice and really wanting to tune in to Him, and as both Clare and Doug kept telling me how it's a process of tuning in to Him.
And my strongest desire is to be in His Presence 24/7, and hear His directions EVERY minute of the day...
(which is what led us to FOTM in the first place ;-)
So last night we're praying (hubby & I) and I'm repenting of all the stuff of the day, and self, and then worshiping Him in the Spirit, and in the quietness of the evening I get this impression of "How much do I really desire to be in His Presence?"
and "Do I desire sleep, more than my desire to be in His Presence?" "Do I desire food & water, more than my desire to be in His Presence?" and I get this revelation of how much I'm telling the Lord that I desire His Presence, and yes, with my mouth I have spoken that I have surrendered everything to Him to be in His Presence, no matter what the cost.... but I haven't really been SHOWING Him how much I desire it! The only things that I have shown Him outwardly, is by switching off the tv (only watching 1 or 2 things here or there), and being obedient to his nudging us to leave the church.
So I start declaring to Him, that I do desire His Presence more than food, sleep or water and tell Him that I will not have either until that prayer is answered (ha, ha).
With that being said, off I go to bath, and I'm just praising Him and telling Him that He is my living water, and daily bread, and my rest.
I get out the bath, and I have this overwhelming thirst for physical water! But I tell Him again, He is my Living Water, and I knew that I needed to read the passage on the woman at the well with Jesus, so I ask the Lord where in the Word is that passage, because I know it's probably in all 4 gospels, but had no clue exactly where.. not even the chapter. I hear a voice in my thoughts, saying John 4:13.
and I think to myself, oh boy, here we go again, it's just my voice or my thought and I'm setting myself up for disappointment again. But I look it up anyway....
"Jesus answered and said unto her, Whosoever drinketh of this water shall thirst again: 14 But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life."
Oh Clare, I fell on my knees in Awe of Him! He didn't just say... check out John chapter 4..... He SPECIFICALLY said 4:13!!!!
Now I know this is not new for most of you and you probably hear Him like this all the time, but for me, this is a HUGE breakthrough!
Praise YOU FATHER! Thank YOU so much!
Oh, and while I'm on my knees, I notice I'm not thirsty anymore!
I creep into bed still in Awe of Him, and not sure if I should sleep, but I know He had blessed me with His Presence, and that I could get some sleep!
The next morning I don't want to eat or drink because I still want more of His Presence, so I'm sitting outside by the pool, and I say to the Lord in my thoughts, "I'm sorry to say this Lord, but I just don't get how you could have the time to spend the whole day filling me with Your thoughts in my head" So immediately He gives me another scripture, Psalm 139, which I know so well, and I think,
"Yeah I know that one well, Lord," but still I sense Him urging me to check it out.. so I get the KJV, which I had never read Psalm 139 in KJV and it's blessing me so much, and I get to verse 17:
"How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them! 18 (If) I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee."
FATHER, You are amazing me more & more each day! I yearn for More of YOU, and I know that More is coming!
I so desperately want my cup to be completely Full of YOU and gushing through me to share with others!
Thank YOU so much for opening my eyes & ears & heart! Thank YOU so much for Clare & Doug and all the others that have been praying for us that we don't even know about! I pray that what I have in my cup that is YOU will be poured in abundance into them. I pray for the strength that they need to do the task set ahead of them by YOU. Thank YOU Father, in Jesus Name, Amen.
Your sister in Christ Jesus
Jenni
And my strongest desire is to be in His Presence 24/7, and hear His directions EVERY minute of the day...
(which is what led us to FOTM in the first place ;-)
So last night we're praying (hubby & I) and I'm repenting of all the stuff of the day, and self, and then worshiping Him in the Spirit, and in the quietness of the evening I get this impression of "How much do I really desire to be in His Presence?"
and "Do I desire sleep, more than my desire to be in His Presence?" "Do I desire food & water, more than my desire to be in His Presence?" and I get this revelation of how much I'm telling the Lord that I desire His Presence, and yes, with my mouth I have spoken that I have surrendered everything to Him to be in His Presence, no matter what the cost.... but I haven't really been SHOWING Him how much I desire it! The only things that I have shown Him outwardly, is by switching off the tv (only watching 1 or 2 things here or there), and being obedient to his nudging us to leave the church.
So I start declaring to Him, that I do desire His Presence more than food, sleep or water and tell Him that I will not have either until that prayer is answered (ha, ha).
With that being said, off I go to bath, and I'm just praising Him and telling Him that He is my living water, and daily bread, and my rest.
I get out the bath, and I have this overwhelming thirst for physical water! But I tell Him again, He is my Living Water, and I knew that I needed to read the passage on the woman at the well with Jesus, so I ask the Lord where in the Word is that passage, because I know it's probably in all 4 gospels, but had no clue exactly where.. not even the chapter. I hear a voice in my thoughts, saying John 4:13.
and I think to myself, oh boy, here we go again, it's just my voice or my thought and I'm setting myself up for disappointment again. But I look it up anyway....
"Jesus answered and said unto her, Whosoever drinketh of this water shall thirst again: 14 But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life."
Oh Clare, I fell on my knees in Awe of Him! He didn't just say... check out John chapter 4..... He SPECIFICALLY said 4:13!!!!
Now I know this is not new for most of you and you probably hear Him like this all the time, but for me, this is a HUGE breakthrough!
Praise YOU FATHER! Thank YOU so much!
Oh, and while I'm on my knees, I notice I'm not thirsty anymore!
I creep into bed still in Awe of Him, and not sure if I should sleep, but I know He had blessed me with His Presence, and that I could get some sleep!
The next morning I don't want to eat or drink because I still want more of His Presence, so I'm sitting outside by the pool, and I say to the Lord in my thoughts, "I'm sorry to say this Lord, but I just don't get how you could have the time to spend the whole day filling me with Your thoughts in my head" So immediately He gives me another scripture, Psalm 139, which I know so well, and I think,
"Yeah I know that one well, Lord," but still I sense Him urging me to check it out.. so I get the KJV, which I had never read Psalm 139 in KJV and it's blessing me so much, and I get to verse 17:
"How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them! 18 (If) I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee."
FATHER, You are amazing me more & more each day! I yearn for More of YOU, and I know that More is coming!
I so desperately want my cup to be completely Full of YOU and gushing through me to share with others!
Thank YOU so much for opening my eyes & ears & heart! Thank YOU so much for Clare & Doug and all the others that have been praying for us that we don't even know about! I pray that what I have in my cup that is YOU will be poured in abundance into them. I pray for the strength that they need to do the task set ahead of them by YOU. Thank YOU Father, in Jesus Name, Amen.
Your sister in Christ Jesus
Jenni
